Ariana Madix Confirms ‘Jamie’ Rumor with ‘Dirty as Hell’ Single AF Cocktail Recipe and More: Exclusive Excerpt

Ariana Madix isn’t just inviting other women in the midst of “the briny muck” of a breakup to drown their sorrows — she’s providing the recipe.

Madix’s forthcoming book Single AF Cocktails: Drinks for Bad B*tches (out Dec. 5) is a labor of love–turned–hate. Written in the fallout of her shocking discovery in March that her then-boyfriend Tom Sandoval had been having an affair with her friend and Vanderpump Rules castmate Rachel “Raquel” Leviss, the book chronicles the highs and “new lows” of the couple’s nine-year relationship.

Since then, the Bravo star has been reclaiming her voice, her story and her power — despite a seeming deluge of revelations about Sandoval, 41, and the months-long entanglement with Leviss, 29, he carried out just under the radar.

One such revelation centered on speculation about a secret name Sandoval was using in his phone to cover up his illicit messages with Leviss. In Single AF Cocktails, Madix confirms that her ex was, indeed, “so committed to this double life that he used ‘Jamie’ as a code name for her in his phone.”

As she shares early in the book, one of the key bonding moments with Sandoval was when he comforted her — as a friend — when her father died suddenly of a heart attack in August 2013. With that in mind, she explains why the name “Jamie” cut especially deep.

“The worst part is that my dad’s name was James, may he rest in peace,” Madix, 38, writes. “Imagine seeing a screenshot of a text in which he tells a friend how he ‘took Jamie to the mile high club.’ For him to use my dad’s name for her was a level of disrespect I didn’t realize was possible.”

Talking to PEOPLE about her decision to include such “vulnerable,” raw memories from the last year, Madix says, “The majority of my life is off camera, so that’s, I think, something that people will never see.”

Describing Sandoval’s deception, she continues, “We’re talking 24 hours a day, seven days a week, 30, 31 days a month of day in, day out, moment-to-moment, lies, deception and gaslighting and horrible treatment.”

“There’s so many things like that,” she adds, “and there’s definitely not room in the cocktail book to write them all.”

Below, read the backstory of the Jamie cocktail — and learn how to shake it up at home.